Tuesday, March 25, 2008 / 9:31 AM
It's 2.30am in the morning
and my eyes just refuse to close.
GP assignment is ultimate crazy!!!!
it's suppossed to be exactly 500 words long
with zero grammer mistakes
yes, zero mistakes!
AHHH!!!
and he reserves the right to ask us re-write it
until he is satisfied
god!
and there's JTS plus OG outing 2morrow
to be exact, should be today.
(since it's way past midnight now)
the hole in my pocket is getting really big!
and i will be ultimate broke after today:(
cos JTS will be at swensons plus OG outing
plus class fund, newsweek subscription, chem notes, GP file....
and my throat is really painful now
and i dun even feel like speaking at all...
my voice still sounds alright
but i hurts like siao when i try to speak...
oh well...k-lunch during OG outing later:(
i guess i will just stone all the way!
Talked to Sing just now over msn:)
and we were talking about PW and PI.
she promise me that she will crash me at JTS at Parkway
(if her cca ends late:D)
YEAH!!!!
Haha, talking to Sing forever makes me so happy!
cos it's like talking to your soul-mate
and you know, your soul-mates will always be there for you
no matter what happens!
VJ Chinese Orchestra concert on 9th may.
anyone wants to go with me????
Love is a fire
But whether it is going to warm your heart
or burn down your house
you can never tell
Sunday, March 23, 2008 / 7:45 AM
I wish i could just knock my head against the wall now
hopefully i will just lose my consciousness
I know i am struggling
I know i am losing grip
I know i am just a total stranger to myself now
i literally slept my day off today:(
sometimes i just love to sleep
cos i keeps my poor brain shut
and at the very least i won't get the chance to think too much.
i am exhausted
and my mind is in a mess now
it hurts to see you walk away.
Saturday, March 22, 2008 / 7:08 AM
i think it's all my fault
i think i was the one who screwed things up.
i tried to salvage it
i really did
but it just felt like holding on to water in my hands
no matter how hard i tried to close my fingers as tight as possible
it will all flow out eventually.
Ahhh!!!! i am damm tired now
WHO WANTS TO MUG WITH ME TOMORROW????
Friday, March 21, 2008 / 7:15 AM
good friday
wasn't really good for me...
i slacked almost the whole day off...
did practically nothing!!!!
my head hurts terribly now
and i am in this very sleepy cum sian mood the whole day...
took a total of 4 naps in the day
when i actually woke up nearly near 10 today
and i still feel very sleepy now...
my appetite suck totally.
dun even feel like eating anything
so i was literally slacking on my bed the whole day
tried to do some chem
but i found out that i dun even understand bonding...
so doing tutorial is totally out of the question...
was talking to zhenrui just now...
discussing about what to do the next OG outing....
and i just sneezed consecutive for 6 times just now...
and i am feeling cold
even though i am sweating.
oh well..OG outing next wed during off-day...
hope that it will be fun!!!
it has been long since we had one...
okay, it should be that it has been long since we had a good one.
and let's hope more ppl can turn up this time:D
GP plus mugging 2morrow with Rachel!
if you know you are going to break them
pls don't give me empty promises
cos sometimes, i tend to pin my hopes too heavily on them
though i jolly well know the chances of disappointment.
Thursday, March 20, 2008 / 8:17 PM
Daybreak is the only release of unknown anxieties,
that whips up a concotation of insecurities
the fear that is built up deep within
can only be removed by Light
for Light is the only eliminator of darkness
and i shall wait patiently for the first ray of Light
the very first ray that pentrates throught the dark clouds
I am still holding tight
but somewhere inside,
i am already lost,
uneasy and
on the verge of tears.
Tuesday, March 18, 2008 / 7:14 AM
okay..i am not exactly in the mood to write anything.
and maths test today was totally horrible:(
sure sure sure to fail this time...
and i am damm tired now...
given the fact that i had insomia for the last 2 nights
and i slept less than 8 hours altogether for last 2 days:(
By the way
HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY JIAHAN!!!okay, nothing much to say..
so here are some random pictures!
Valentines gifts:D
My gift to OG-mates!
Hand-made roses by me:)
beloved 4-mooers during CNY gathering!
BABA!!!
Sunday, March 16, 2008 / 7:26 AM
Hols are ending in 1.5 hours times:(
Last day of March hols...
did not do anything much....
spent most of my time slacking off..
but i read thru my atomic structure notes!
and i went jogging today:D
okay, i have to mug maths now!
cos i going for comserve 2morrow
and i will reach home by 8:(
plus there is chem test on tuesday too:(
so most prob, i will not have time to mug much 2morrow...
mug mug mug...
Term 2's coming
another 10 weeks of torture and pain...
I wish someone will send me a sunflower these few days:(
i miss the way it effortlessly lightens up a person's day
and for you,
i promise i will hold these tears
and always give you my smile.
Saturday, March 15, 2008 / 5:31 AM
I just burped
okay..that's not the point.
I woke up late today:(
really late this time...
supposed to leave house for GP at 10.40am
when i woke up the FIRST time
it was 8.35am...
so i was like
okay, got time to sleep somemore
and i slumped back to my bed.
and when i woke up the SECOND time....
to my horror, it was 10.20am already...
ahh!!!! i rushed my way thru morning rountine
and when i walked out of my house,
i suddenly realised that i forgot to bring my pencil case
and notes for Rachel.
Went for GP with Rachel
as usual, it was 2 hours of really entertaining session
Haha, Paul Chow is really a damm funny guy!!!!
we went thru stock phrases today
and we were talking about environmental rape, biological slavery, digital pearl harbour etc....
haha..den he was teaching us how to make our essay less "HDB" and more "landed property"
okay, after that he was "niaoing" me throughout the whole lesson
about how i will fail GP if i hate newsweek...
Talking about newsweek,
yes, yes i admit i dun like newsweek
cos i hate to do the questions that comes along with it:(
haha, i could still remember how 4M treat newsweek last time
we'll always bring them to where they belong,
the place where they can find their fellow soul-mates....
haha, the wonderful recycling bin!!!!
can always recall this scene of the recycling bin right outside the staff room
where it will always be full or sometimes,
even overflooded with newsweek during the last day of the term...
and yes, it's just outside the staff room...
Okay, so much about newsweek,
let me go back to what happened today.
After GP, went to high street centre to send my camera for repairs
and rachel was complaining all the way from peninsula plaza to high street centre
about how long we had to walk
when actually, it;s quite a short distance compared to PP
tsk, tsk, tsk...
After that, me and rachel decided to pangseh poo and joanne
so we went for lunch together:D
den we went plaza sing and strolled around
did nothing really productive
so after a while, rachel decided to go home to study dynamics herself,
since i know nuts about it
and yup, we took train home together:D
Oh well, today was a slack day with rachel
but nevertheless, it feels really good to go out with rachel
and it has been a long long time since we did so
and yes, we shall have a mugging session next week at Rachel place!!!!!
School's starting really soon in 2 days time:(
and yes, i dread school:(
Thursday, March 13, 2008 / 8:33 PM
I finally see the sun!!!!
YAY!!!!
after so many dark and gloomy days
Oh, and i was reading the papers this morning when i realised
yesterday was the coldest day in Singapore for the past 74 years!
i guess i am falling sick really soon:(
woke up with a bloody, splitting headache
den was sneezing non-stop all around the house
okay, as i am typing this post
my feet are damm cold!!!
oh well..what a wonderful time to fall sick....
YLTC will be ending today!!!
hope all those who went are still feeling alright!
haha..somehow i miss my OG-mates who went for YLTC
it feels weird not seeing them online at night
i guess i wouldn't see them tonight either
cos they will most prob be too tired to go online
and OG outing 2morrow is still not confirmed:(
okay, let's hope i will receive Charlton's sms tonight!
if there's no OG outing,
i will either go for clique outing
or meet jin zaw to pass her my PE tee
and yes, there's still GP class 2morrow:(
That's all now
i still have to practice maths today
and go teach my cousin ss/geo later in the afternoon
which i practically can't remember a single shit
and all my notes are not with me:(
crap lah!!!!
I love the warmth from the sun:D
cos it reminds me of your pretty smiles:)
I just confirmed my attendence for Cedar 50th Speech Day
YAY:D
Can't wait to see my beloved 4-mooers
and today gathering at Sng's place was cancelled:(
Cedar 50th Speech Day on 4th April
and i will be going back to receive GOLD award for getting 7 points for Os:)
it's on a Friday!!!!
and i have to be in Cedar by 4.30pm for rehearsals
when the actual ceremony starts only at 7.30pm:(
according to the letter, if we reach after 5pm, we'll be considered late
and cannot receive our award
haha..so i guess i will get to miss CT session:D
Haha, i am really really looking forward to speech day!!!!
Had a haircut yesterday
and now my hair is shorter and more layered
haha, my ponytail really shrinked a lot
thank god, it can still be tied up
but it takes me quite a while to do it
and i guess i have to wake up earlier next monday
so that i wouldn't have to run after 151 again!
Hmm..let me conclude all the work i have done so far:
- bio enzymes tutorial
- chem gas law tutorial
- maths tutorial and supplementary exercise 5 and 6
- econs tutorial 7B and 7C
- newsweek
- and maths TYS on graphing techniques
okay, that's all i did for the past few days
i still have to mug for maths and chem class test
and i need to revise my econs and bio too
cos it seems that there's really a lot of thing i don't know:(
and that means a lot of work to catch up!
and i am so depressed over the fact that my camera is spoiled
crap lah, dun even noe how it got faulty!!!!
oh well, thank god the warranty is not over yet
and i have to bring it down for repair this weekend
hopefully, it will okay by 4th April
so that i can take nice and pretty pictures with 4-Mooers on Speech Day!
and the raindrops continue to fall on my window panes
pitter-patter, pitter- patter....
Wednesday, March 12, 2008 / 8:23 AM
I've been having this feeling of emptiness
for the past few days
somehow
i feel that i am lost
lost my way and myself
in this game of life
and i find it really tough to find myself back anymore
it seems that i have really lost my aim in life
and i seriously have no idea why i am heading to now.
The most bitter tears shed over graves
are for words left unsaid
and deeds left undone.
Will i be the one shedding the most bitter tears?
maybe.
Friday, March 07, 2008 / 6:32 AM
Last Day of Term 1 2008
Can't believe i actually survived 10 weeks in Hwa Chong!
Let me now do a reflection on the past 10 weeks
Let me start with
ORIENTATION!JUMPSTART was really a memeorable experience for me.
i can really say that those 2 weeks of orientation
were the happiest days i had in Hwa Chong.
Met a group of really funky, cool and nice people....
OG5!!!!!!!
I seriously cannot imagine how life will be like without you guys.
Thanks for also being there for me!
orientation will really be different without you people
pls continue to stay in contact!
(and when is our next outing????)
LOVE YOU PEEPS ALWAYS!!!!!
After orientation, we had our
CIVICS TUTOR GROUP (CT)08S76 for me, with Mr Ngoh as our CT
had problems fitting in at first
but i guess it's getting a lot better now:D
there are actually lots of nice ppl in the class:)
let's hope that the class can get more and more bonded and united
after all, we'll all be together for the next 2 years:D
so why not make it a fun and exciting 2 years filled with fond memories?
After CTs were formed was the
RELEASE OF O LEVELS RESULTSscored 7 points, with 5 A1 and 3 A2.
cried during relaesed of results
cos i was afraid that i could not make it back.
had comforts, hugs and encouragements from the 4-mooers
a great thank you to rachel, Joanne, Singyee, Pinn Xian, Sze Waiy, Simin, Huiyi......
and many many more who have spent the last 2 years with me:D
I guess all of us had spent 4 wonderful years in cedar
and working together hard for the last 2 years
to achieve an average LIR5 of 9.6 for the class!
I am really really pround of ecah and everyone of you:D
wish you ppl all the best in your JCs!
Oh, not forgetting all my wonderful juniors
who were with me for the past 3 years
hugs to yanjie, jin zaw, yolanda......
you guys have been a great bunch of friends:D
After all the PAE procedures and all sorts of registrations....
I MADE IT BACK TO HWA CHONGbut Huiyi did not.
I seriously feel that she deserved a place in Hwa Chong
more than anyone else i noe.
but well, she was posted to TJ eventually
though she did not get to stay
i believe God has other things in store for her
so all the best for your college life:D
Then the honeymoon period was over
and here comes all the serious stuffs
LECTURES, TUTORIALS, CLASS TESTS, LECTURE TESTSand till now, i failed 2 tests
Chem lecture test and GP essay
i guess i have to buck up now...
cos i heard blocks are coming soon
though not so soon, since it's like after june hols
but still...i should start working really hard now
since i am seriously lagging behind already:(
Joined
INTERACT CLUB as my CCA
and had lots of fun with my iGroup2 doing IU week together
haha, just came back from iGroup dinner
and we did AAR today
plus some gossiping during AAR:D
and very soon, we'll be having and iGroup outing together:D
Okay..actually there are a lot more events that took place
but well, i am just too lazy to list all of them.
Overall, i have learnt a lot this term
from making new friends to having more self-discipline
i learnt that it is through adversity that makes one stronger
both physically and mentally
and if we are faced with challenges
what we should do is to take on these challenges and do our best to overcome them
though it might be difficult at times
as long as we have done our very best
not tried our very best
i believe we'll all get what we deserve.
That's all for me now
and well...
i promise i will work very very very hard this March hols
and
STOP PROCRASTINATING!!!!!
Wednesday, March 05, 2008 / 5:41 AM
教室里那台风琴
叮咚叮咚叮嚀
像你告白的声音
动作一直很轻
微笑看你送完信
转身离开的背影
喜欢你字跡清秀的关心
那温热的 牛奶瓶
在我手中握紧
有你在的地方
我总感觉很窝心
日子像旋转木马
在脑海里转不停
出现那些你对我好的场景
你说过牵了手就算约定
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像来不及许愿的流星
再怎麼美丽也只能是曾经
太美的承诺因為太年轻
但亲爱的那并不是爱情
就像是精灵住错了森林
那爱情错的很透明
Tuesday, March 04, 2008 / 7:24 AM
I regret
I regret to tell you that i cannot live up to your expectation
I regret to tell you that i am really sorry
I regret for all the tempers that i lost this week
I regret for creating such a tense atmosphere
I regret for making everyone unhappy
I regret for giving myself so much misery
Maybe it was all wrong from the start
I REGRET MAKING THIS DECISION
