Thursday, October 26, 2006 / 5:46 AM
"If you are given a chance to speak up and u did not,
u have no rights to complain."
that's what mr sng said today
true and i really agree
learnt something new today
and yes, i promise i will try to be happy
and i will "learn to appreciate myself more,
to see myself as a person of tremendous innate worth"
as quoted from my report book
yup, i will try to do that asap
i hope:)
Friday, October 20, 2006 / 3:19 AM
It's good that you dun possess anything
Cos if you have nothing
It simply means you have nothing to lose at the end of the day
which implies that you dun have to undergo
the pain and agony of losing something
you once had
trust me,
the pain is really unbearable
Though i am trying very hard to stay optimistic
but, i couldn't held back my tears
i cried this afternoon
i cried
Saturday, October 14, 2006 / 5:54 PM
Went back to school for sec.4 graduation ceremomy yesterday
it was kind of tiring for me
cos i had to reach school by 7 early in e morning
when i slept aroung 3.30 e night before
yes, surviving with barely 2.5 hours of sleep
e whole thing was kind of screwed
teachers came in WITHOUT MUSIC AT ALL
suppossed to play 'pomps and circumstance"
but, control room did not noe that they were starting
and u see, things didn't play in time
it was rather okay after that
but guess everyone was rather discouraged
den during e tribute
e song lyrics was not synchronise with e slide show
e two sec two PC at e backstage cried
they cried
OMG, i felt so sad for them
cos i saw them putting in hours and hours of hard work
just to do e do all e powerpoint
and yet, it did not run in time
but, nevertheless
thumbs up to e two PCs
cos you guys haven already given your best:)
Everything was well den
saw all the sec 4s cry and cry non-stop
when they sang their theme song
Haih, guess next year we are going to go thru e same thing again
i realised something yesterday
sometimes, it's good to accept how things are
instead of fighting over it
cos, when u fight
more disputes takes place
and u see, everyone ends up unhappy
sometimes, someones
just have to take e initiative
to put herself at some disadvantages
so that somehow
things are not made worse
i am not saying about myself
but, just some general observations...
i am trying my best to make myself happy
i really tried
but somehow
i really feel like giving myself up completely
Wednesday, October 11, 2006 / 8:35 AM
Yeah!!!!
i went ice-skating today
haha, it was interesting
and also
lots and lots of fun
went there with kurinchi, rachel and joanne
haha, it was kind of funny
cos, 3 out of 4 had no experience at ice-skating
so, we held hands together
and if one falls, u noe wat will happen to e rest
e rink was wet
so if u fall, haha
your butt will be wet totally
there was a cursed area
where kurinchi fell into an ultra big puddle there
and later
every time we skate past
its kind of funny
cos we will skate slowly
so that none of us fall again
rachel was fast in picking up
while me and kurinchi
was not tat good lah
haha, i always had joanne to drag me
while kurinchi had rachel to drag her
den we ate maggie mee with egg there
it was nice
eating hot food in a cold place:)
yes, it was definately fun
but also promising exhaustion
i felt like dying when i came home
and almost fell asleep just now
but
i stayed awake, u see
Special thanks to all of them
Joanne: for dragging me so much today
Kurinchi and rachel: for constant support and encouragement
i truly enjoyed myself today
guess it has been a long time
since i really enjoyed myself tat much
oh, i saw a guy who looks really like him today on e train back
but, i noe
its definitely not him
reminds me of him suddenly and also e fun we once had together
but, really missed him now:)
oh, he is doing fine there
i heard and probably may come back
lesser than two years time
i hope so
My current greatest fear
is when i am afraid
i might not see him again
not be able to hold his hands
and also, to hug him warmly in my arms
ever.....
Tuesday, October 10, 2006 / 7:47 AM
101006
nice date
haha, went out to bugis today
was a rather short outing
with slyvia, li thong and deborah sim
we had lunch at kfc
den just went window shopping
walking round and round around bugis
cos, deb just finish her paper
so she wanted to celebrate
oh, we took neoprints too:)
deb sim was asking wat we learn in school
she was telling us all kind of funny things she learn in IP programme
haha, it was rather "chim"
and i guess we did not understand much
eg: newton second law: F=ma
tat was simply wat we learn in cedar
but deb sim went on to talk about one whole chunk
how e formula came about
haha, i bet none of us understands it though.
Oh, i was kind of depressed today
when i went for lessons tonight
i am ultra determined now
i shall go and take my grade one abacus exams next year jan
haha, according to my teacher
no one in singapore had ever made it to abacus grade one
( although there are lots in singapore with mental abacus grade one)
e worse thing
my elder sis is also going for e exams
she was telling me we shall
have a fair competition
so, i was learning e "octang" part of grade one
octang simply means negative
as in half way thru e sum, you have an ultra big negative no.
which eventually gives u a negative answer
it was interesting, but at e same time
complicated
my mum is nagging at me again
gosh, she nags non-stop
and when i say non-stop
i seriously mean it
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okay going to bed now...
oh, i am going ice-skating tomorrow
with joanne, rachel and kurinchi tomorrow
yeah!!!
at e very least, there is something nice
which i can look forward to tomorrow:)
Saturday, October 07, 2006 / 6:30 PM
It's over
It's finally over
no more mugging through e wee hours
no more sleeping at 2 and waking up at 4
Yes, it's finally over
Hooray!!!!!!
Haha, i can't believe it
i actually managed to survive 4 days
on only 12 hours of sleep in total
this is about 3 hours per day???
I was extreme glad at 1.15pm on friday
it marked e end of my exams period
and a beginning of a short hols
I walked out of school with charis, ruiwen,quincy, jiani, pinn xian,simin, szewaiy, singyee, jamie, yinxue
at pp mrt, we meet charmaine, huiyi, cheryl, mr sng and miss wee
i was having such a bad headache that i went home to sleep
gosh, it was really tat bad that i felt that my head was splitting any time
den e train towards punggol came
and me amd yinxue boarded e train
mr sng was asking why i wasn't going e other way
well i told him i needed sleep desperately
and he asked me if i was okay
yes, i was
though i am really feeling bad
if not
what u expect me to do
faint on e streets????
I strolled home really slowly
guess i took quite a long time to reach home
i had lunch
which was rather disgusting
cos my elder sis cooked it
and she forced me to finish
btw, it was some half cooked chicken
and some ultra hard veggies
I went into deep sleep after lunch
really deep sleep, i mean
i slept for 18 hours straight, without waking up at all
till 8.30 next day
well, i thought i would be feel good after that, but it did not
i was running high fever
and had to go to e doctor late in e noon
just to get some medicine
i could still vividly remember e day when all of us said
" Gosh, i wonder how am i gonna to survive e four days!"
but without realising, it ended so soon
though during e days
i was really stressed up
and i admitted that i had thoughts of poning school
just to skip e exams
e feeling sucks when u had barely two hours of quality sleep
and u had to wake up to school
to sit through two long and gruelling paper
and one thing
i think i nearly faint during bio paper
cos as i was doing section B
my vision suddenly became blur
and e next moment
it was totally balck
i shoke my head violently
and i managed to overcome the fainting spell
and continued with e paper...
i really want to thank those
who have helped me in a way or another during the gruelling period
special mention to huiyi
who has motivated me so much before physics and a maths paper
and also e notes on ecotourism which came out during e exam
Liukun: who constantly asked me to help her do those question in FYS
so that i got so motivated that i started to do mine too
my family
especially "yeye"
who came to fetch me tro and fro from school everyday
during e exam period
a GREAT THANKS to all of u
E most gruelling time is over
but e depressing time is coming
when we eventually checked our papers
and see for ourselves
how well we have done
and whether all those tears and sweat and effort
we put in
is worthwhile or not