Thursday, November 30, 2006 / 5:41 AM
One month passed
and i did so little in e month
spent all my time slacking and slacking away
the body is strong
but the mind is weak
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> guess i am really rotting away
Went back school yesterday nite
to do NP annual campfire duty
we were dismissed at 10 plus
den after seeing Fiona and Sili parents fetched them
me and peichun walked out of pp
talking crap and crap along the way out
den suddenly, two dogs started barking at us
we got a shock and freaked ourselves out
haha,den a man rode a bicycle behind us
and we thought it was a dog chasing us
so, two shock in a row
hehe, we den walked safely out of pp
and i jay-walked on e way
i took e train and reached hougang in 15 mins time
the distance i had to walk from the station to my home
is rather a long one
i was walking ultra slow i guess
cos a lot of ppl took over me
was thinking about you
wondering wat you would be doing
on e opposite side on the Earth
den was thinking whether u would see those tiny little stars
shining so brightly in the dark sky
A sudden urge to meet u up
to make u hold my cold hands tightly
so that i could feel your warmth and love
to hear your voice
which gave me so much assurance
wanted to call u
but thought that it would be about 2 plus in e morning for u over there
and did not want to disturb
so yah, began to take a stroll
to enjoy the cool breeze that blew past my face
I regret not cherishing u when u was there
i regret not spending time with u when i could
and now
it all seems so far and long
missing u
really missing u
Thursday, November 16, 2006 / 5:52 AM
Went back to school today for camp discussion
was rather enjoyable
cos, at least half e group turned up
and yea, the media ppl were rather enthu in e whole thing
we manage to came up with a draft outline of e concert item
this is a good sign
i suppossed
Discussion end at 10 plus
den went to IT lab to break e lousy SVA news to ppl in group 2
somehow, i felt like i was talking inside my own world
they were not very responsive throghout e whole thing
den some of them request to join group 1
but miss wee said it was unfair
so i guess, it will be a withdraw
or a "continue to do but enter next year."
So sfter that i went to help yanjie pack LTC AV stuff
Haha, went all over the school to find e line jet wires and mike
I guess e bio-tech system in school does not like miss wee
cos she had to tap her fingerprint so many times
as many as 5 times today
before she saw 'Acess granted"
Haha, Mr Chris Chan managed to open in one try
so hah, e system dun like miss wee:)
After we finally finish packing
me and yanjie went to eat in e canteen
we had cup noodles and drinks
as we were walking back to e foyer
I saw my CL juniors
First thing which came to mind was
" Gosh what are they here."
I went up and asked if they were here for backdrop painting
and they said yes
I was like," Did u ppl receive e message in e morning?"
both said they did not
after a while, i realised that both of them changed their phone no.
so e message could not reach them eventually
Later, i received a call this afternoon
and Li Thong said that one sec one parent actually called up
and scolded her for e late information
actually, we also knew it as late as yesterday night
and it was not that we did not inform
we did, but just that they changed their no. and did not receive
so true enough, e sec one should also hold some responsibility right?
as in, she herself change her phone no. and did not inform e committee at all
so we sent to the wrong person eventually and it was not entirely our fault
I admit e com was also wrong
in e sense that we had the notice up too late
that's why not everyone received it
but den if you ppl were to change your no. is it your responsibility to inform us
I am not blaming anyone now
but just treat this as a lesson
so that i hope each and everyone will have a greater sense of responsibilty
and really hope no more communication breakdown will happen again
sometimes, these ppl should put themselves in our shoes
we have sec 3 extra lessons
CCA committments
school work to handle
and I admit this year com got extra work to do
E ultra big CNY backdrop, notice boards and even a CCA banner
they just dun understand us
and they dun see that even we are not performing that well as expected
we are really doing our best in whatever we have
so sometimes
we are also tired
at e least
we are still human beings
Wednesday, November 15, 2006 / 6:24 AM
BAD NEWS!!!!!!
we might have to drop out from SVA
gosh, wat's going on?
I could still remember all e excitement we had on our first briefing
And now, it;s all gonna end
Miss wee raised this issue today after camp briefing
cos, due to some unknown reasons
okay, maybe they are known but i just dun noe
the two groups of 6 per group
suppossedly working togather for a video
ended up with:
Group 1: 2 sec ones, sarah and jinzaw
Group 2: 1 sec two, yanjie
so now, we might not be able to submit from time
so yea, we might have to withdraw from the competition
The truth is always cruel and heart-wrenching
Such situation is definately not we want to see
Though u guys said it was okay
but, i could sense e dissappointment that u all had
I saw all e efforts you ppl put into for the video
staying abck in e IT lab till 7 at night
Going skate park to film till night time
i noe it was exhausted and tiring for u all
but yea, look on the bright side okay:)
Jin zaw and Sarah: Thank you for putting in so much effort
thank u for e enthusiam u injected into e whole project
Guess u ppl also had a fun time filming
so yes, dun feel sad, cos at e least you guys enjoyed yourself:)
Yanjie: Thanks for spending ypur time ine wholr project
Knew that it was not easy for u this whole while
To cope with LTC and SVA at e same time
but, really appreciate everything u have done
u are definately a good and responsible leader:)
People always say," The results aren't important, but e process is"
Therefore, treat this as a learning experience
see it as a chance to sharpen your filming and editing skills
so that we can produce a wonderful video
for the school 50th anniverasy
and not forgetting to write our own credits
at FRONT 48 so that we can be properly acknowledged for our effort this time
Ya, by the way
I have decided not to go for class chalet
since i am doing prom nite duty
and having AV camp in school the next two days
so, goodbye to 3M chalet 06
Hope there will still be 4M chalet 07
Jiayou everyone:)
Friday, November 10, 2006 / 5:58 AM
It has beeen quite a while since i updated my blog
well. perhaps due to plain laziness
hah, went back school today for extra lessons at 9
I almost overslept
guess i stayed up too late last night to help me older sis type her account homework
what rubbish is this?
doing work for someone till 2.30 in the morning
Well, i admit i was falling asleep today during lessons
den during break, peiying came in and said,
" sec ones filming today at skate park."
wanted to make a trip there
but had CL backdrop making
by the time i left school
they finished liao
so, i did not go eventually
But, chem lessons was fun today
miss chng's way of teaching spiced up e lesson
and guess, i was about 70% awake
i guess:)
I am having some funny headaches these few days
It comes and goes quite frequently
sometimes, it comes when i sneeze
and it was a short sharp pain
Worse till, even with ample rest
e moment i wake up
e pain did not go off
Hai, my mum thinks my brain got some problem
and she insist that i should go for some x-ray
haha, i shall wait a few days and see how
perhaps, it is just lack of rest
i hope it is simple:)
I am going to paste mahjong paper now
pasted one whole afternoon
and still could not finish
so had to bring back to do
I am going school tomorrow
to help my juniors do editing of video
so, sleep early:)
To add, i am happy these few days
at least i think i am.
Thursday, November 02, 2006 / 4:37 AM
I am really tired
really exhausted now
can someone come
and pull me a hand
cos
i think i am really falling
really falling apart
All human are so fake
they wear layers amd layers of masks
( like wat e EYE chinese compre passage wrote)
those besides u may teat u nice
but deep within
u never noe wat they are thinking
wat they really think about u
isn't this very true
i really hate
really dislike ppl who back-stabbed others
i noe this is only human nature
that we fight really hard for things we desparately wants
by all means and ways
and i noe
the world is such a depressing place to live in
that's all for now
i am really tired
i want a rest badly
desperately
We are torn between what we want and what is good for others