Thursday, May 18, 2006 / 8:58 AM
Harloe..it has bben such a long tyme since posted any stuff
Hmm..now it's going to be midnite soon
in a about five mins tyme....
this week was a slack week
we seldom had any lessons cos it is post exams
lots of activities were arranged for us
such as bio DNA class and performances
I am streesed out this week
my family is in a total mess
my sis is having troubles wif her studies
and she comes home everyday with a sour face
and sometimes tears rolling down her cheeks
I really wonder what's going on in her mind
i really want to help
but i dun noe how
sometimes, i just feel lile asking her to drop all her studies
and do something else
today juz check my marklist for my midyear results
A little disappointment aroused within me
not because i am no longer first in classs
cos i am not vying for any position
but because my overall percentage dropped
i knew that this year i wasn't as hardworking as last year
i did not put in as much effort as last year
somehow, i began to doubt my own ability
can i really cope with triple science?
should i consider dropping it?
since not all my three sciences are counted in my L1R5
why not take another humanity
lyke lit or history since i am doing badly for SS/Geo
Life is full of ups and downs
we never noe what is going to happen next
today, tomorrow, the day after
we may try to predict
but not always accurate
what we can do is only pray
pray that things will go smooth
pray tat everything goes well
any pray that nothing bad happens
to anyone around me...
going to bed now
cos 2morrow still got X-country at MacRitchie
but can i sleep?
i doubt i can since i slept five solid hours in the afternoon
Nevertheless, i will try
STAYING AWAKE....
Tuesday, May 09, 2006 / 2:59 AM
I AM EXTREMELY ANGRY!!!!!juz came home from my maths tution class
i am really hurt by what my teacher said
I showed him my e-maths common test paper
I scored 28 upon 40
At the least, it was an A2
But, guess wat he said
" You did so badly"
The paper was tough
and as a level, we did not do well
He flipped thru e paper
without carefully studying each of e single quetion
and he said " You could have done better, it was such a simple paper"
That wasn't the worse of all
The worse was when he said
" You are beginning to slack down, no longer as hardworking as ever"
I was completely saddened by his comment
i did put in efforts in this paper
i did all the questions in my ten years series
despite e practice, i did not perform well
I am already quite disappointed in myself
but why muz he rub salt into my wound
i had tried my best
but i was defeated by myself at e last minute
I muz admit that i am rather stressed
i failed to perform to my normal standard
i failed to stay calm while taking the test
i failed.....
Thinking it again, i should be partially blamed too
if only i could relax while taking e test
if only i did not panick so much
if only i did not make so much careless mistakes
if only......
The past will remain in the history
Guess whatever i could do now was to learn from my mistake
there's no point crying over spilt milk
i muz put in more efforts, relax, calm myself down
in the next test
STAYING STRONG.....
Monday, May 08, 2006 / 8:05 AM
Hmm....now is 11.00pm -at nite
juz cannot get to sleep
perhaps,due to some form of stress
Logically speaking, shouldn't even feel stress in the first place
there's nothing 2morrow
no tests, no exams, no timed assignments
BUT,
my younger sister is sitting for her exams 2morrow
actually, i shouldn't worry in e first place
after all is not me who's gonna to take e exams
e results would not affect me a single bit
BUT,
i am still worried
Sometimes, i try 2 tell myself to take things easy
to take things calm
maybe, its time i learn to let go
Okay, should put an end to depressing stuff
Yah, no school on wednesday
Haha, my school got a lieu of
coz, it was used for general election last sat:)
Looking forward to next monday
Yah!!!
I am turning 15 soonits my BIRTHDAY:)
Hmm, kind of feeling a little tired now
shall stop now and get some rest
Tomorrow SHALL be a better day
no, it should be......
Tomorrow WILL be a better day
SMILES:)