Friday, September 15, 2006 / 5:33 AM
Sometimes
when depression overwhelms you
you never noe what u will do
Friday
supposed to be e best day in e e week
cos it marks the ending of weekdays
and beginning of weekends
I got ultra depressed this morning
I did morning duty and went back class late
that's wasn't anything surprising
cos i never went back class punctually since Term 3
but, it was different today
cos when i reached class
mr sng was already in there.
wow, this is rare
he hardly comes into class for contact time
i suppossed
I think i looked horrible this morning
I had a sudden urge to inflict pain on myself
did not noe how to do it
since i forgot to bring penknife today
so, what i had was e backstage keys
I really had nothing else
so i used it
I used e end part of the keys
to scrap my skin so hard
that it produces some kind of swelling and mark
e mark looked similar to cane mark
but it is shorter
and e pain was more intense
i was doing it throughout e whole english lesson
when the lesson ended
i realised that my left hand
e portion directly on e reverse side of your palm
was red totally
hmm, den i asked jamie what's e next lesson
she said it was physics
and i guess i won't be so free den
so i asked mr sng to help me return e keys
did u realised that sometimes
words from ppl around u can totally change your day?
be it a word of encouragement
or a sentence of scarcasm
can really affect u
some of u may deny this
but everyone have to admit
that such stuff do linger inside your heart
be it a second
or e entire week.
It rained today
heavy thunderstorm
i guess even heaven is depressed
and cried uncontrobally
My fever was back
AGAIN
we watched scrubs during assembly today
i did not realised e presence of my fever
till sze waiy told me that my hand feels warm
i touched my forehead
and gosh
it was really hot
Somethings come
and somethings go
so quietly
without u notice it
at all
