Tuesday, September 05, 2006 / 4:00 AM
I woke up this morning at 5.30
wow, that's not me
i couldn't sleep back after that
i tried
but i just could not
Started doing a-maths at 6.30am
kana stuck at e first sum
so i swoop to e-maths instead
and continued doing till 8.30
non-stop doing maths
i dun noe wat's e problem with me today
gosh, i actually had sucidal thoughts
i had a sudden urge to inflict pain on myself
i want my blood to flow out
out with all my troubles that has beeen bottled inside me
eventually
i did not
cos i remember how much pain he felt
when i did it e last time
i promised hin i would take care of myself
within e two years when he is away
death revolves round me these days
yeaterday, the croc hunter steve irwin passed away
he was only 44
i would not be shocked if he died under the jaws of a crocodile
yet
he surrender to a stingray sting
Life is so vulnerable
i began to have thoughts
of what if i die someday
wat if i leave e world
without accomplishing my dreams
without saying a single goodbye to my loved ones
like wat mr sng said
without leaving an impact on anyone's life
This morning was lynn's dad's funeral
i happen to pass by e void deck
when i went to buy breakfast
i saw her
she cried
i suddenly began to think
wat actually happen if my parents were to pass away someday
how would i react
will i cry
i really dun noe
and perhaps e answer to this
will only occur to me
when e day arrives
just realised that i have been thinking a lot today
poor brain cells
i pity u
but i just can't help it
maybe
i will have an early night today
so that u guys won't have to work so hard
YEAH!!!
just received a mail from him
he said he's doing fine there
and told me to jiayou for EYE
same to u too
and remenber to take care:)
seven hundred and fourteen days more
before
we meet again....
