Monday, August 07, 2006 / 8:34 AM
The day before CEDAR NATIONAL DAY 2006
kinda a little bit nervous
hope that 2morrow nothing goes wrong
including tat e system will not go crazy
and bring unnecessary trouble to us
Stayed back 4 rehearsal again 2day
it continue till about 6.30pm
It is also e fourth time i skipped breakfast, recess and lunch
Shhh....better not let mum knows
Initially, i was kinda looking forward to today rehearsal
Actually, i was looking forward to e NDP video
Hmm, i viewed thru it once
and i felt a sudden pain in my heart.
E cerdits was e one responsible 4 my pain
AV WAS NOT ACKNOWLEGDED AT ALL!!!!!!!!
Goodness!!!! they thank each and everyone one
including e participating sec 4 class
but just left out av
i dun noe why
but i really felt bad after looking thru
we did so much and yet receive no credit at all
how should i answer to myself
for all e time and effort i put in for e past few weeks
for all e scoldings i receive from my parents for coming home late
for all and all
den, i was stuck in a dilema again
how should i answer to my juniors
how would they react if they saw e credits???
i really dun noe how much disappointment they will feel
i really hate to imagine that
however, my nightmare came true
my sec one juniors came and ask me after e rehearsal why were we not credited
i look at her and i really dun noe how to answer
i wanted to cry but i held my tears back
eventually, i told her plainly that that e treatment AV receives each time
She walked off
but i am sure she felt disappointed
was my answer rite????
was what i said too much
Was i jus a lousy senior????
on my way home, i suddenly thought of yanjie
i tried to think of her reaction when she sees e video
i noe she spent a lot of effort taling e raw clips over a few weeks
yet, e video did not display much of her clips
even they did, yanjie was also not included in e credits
Oh no, i really dun noe how to answer to her
It is going to be midnite now
7 more hours to NDP 2006
I am really really sick of this
so much unexpected has happened
i really dun noe what should i do
Maybe, we should jus give it our best 2morrow
and get it done and over with
After 2morrow, i hope all this memories will be erased off my mind
Stay strong
i will try my best
but i am not sure if i really can......
